i'm so low. so so so low.
i hate school.
this isn't fun anymore. i don't want to keep feeling like shit. i feel like i'm walking through school hoping people won't notice the bandage on my wrist. it's kind of hard not to miss if you look at it. it's big and glaring white against my black bracelets and pink watch. it's very hard to miss.
well that attempt at adding some HTML into my post. i'm so goddamn smart. lemme try that again.
i slit my wrist again. cuz i'm so well adjusted. i'm so well adjusted, that i even posted the colieCat at 9:47 PM
look!! look!!! i have a banner, i have a banner!!! link me
there's nothing left holding me up. i'm destroying myself from the inside.
midterms next week. bite me. i'm so screwed. so so so screwed. i was going to study today. i tried, i really did. i was gonna wake up at 10, but i turned my alarm off before i woke up. i do that [not helpul]. and then when i woke up around 2:30, there was nothign to eat. i started eating some honey nut cheerios without milk. when i got to the bottom there were bugs crawling around. needless to say, that was disgusting and made me want to puke. so i drank some diet dr.pepper. i figure anything with that much acid will kill the little suckers.
so as it ended up, i didn't start studying until after 3. even then it was totally not helpful: i can't concentrate.
i've been on the computer basically since 4:30. which was 4 hours ago. i tried to study. i can't concentrate. i'm so fucked.
mused colieCat at 8:35 PM
with a vivid passion
mused colieCat at 10:10 PM
mused colieCat at 10:01 AM
well, to recap. i slit my wrist. again. because i'm well adjusted like that. i also posted the evidence of it in my photoblog (stand.still.) because i'm soooooo well adjusted that i'm afraid people will call me a wanna be loser poser drama queen. not that i really plan on telling anybody.
i've also been told that i'm too fucked up to be in a relationship.
by the guy i wanna be in a relationship with. yeah, life loves me.
what else do i have left to lose???
mused colieCat at 9:56 PM
mused colieCat at 4:10 PM
craving
mused colieCat at 3:32 PM
